a video about bulimia
Mom i’m tired can i sleep in your house tonight this is your idea yeah that was manic when i started ride the high like i know i should i know i should get help right but my worry is that if i get help now i’ll never be skinny and also you’re a grown woman like you’re not going to be super duper like skinny you have a body like point blank unfortunate
Yeah i mean you have like ass and tits like you know hips like that’s just like nothing you you can’t do anything about that i was telling her that like like i don’t really care about the way that my body looks just that it’s small enough to stop garnering attention is it like you just want to be so small that you just aren’t noticed yeah but the same
Reason i cut off my tips and i think it’s the same reason i thought it was like non-binary and it’s just like i don’t understand like if i want it so much like why can’t i do that like i’m not saying that that’s a goal or anything that would be horrible no i i get it i don’t know i could never binge and purge i’ve always just been restrict restrict restrict
So but for me it was a control way and like a different different thing like it was like if i control what i eat then like i can control everything around me you know so i’m coming up it’s unfortunate that i have so much knowledge about nutrition it’s kind of like you’re stuck between a rock and a hard place it’s like you know what you’re doing is wrong
And probably not even helping like no it’s making it worse it’s making me gain weight at this point but you know you can’t help it it’s like as much as i hate doing it i like doing it i mean it’s like with any addiction like i’d much rather be sick forever than be fat and i’m still fat so go from there besides just try harder but you know that only takes
You so far i don’t know i feel like the there’s only like two ways it can really go from here it’s like you get help and you try to get better or you just keep doing it until you eventually get so sick that you know something happens and you know you die all right let’s go with door number two i don’t like that i’ve never liked that people first reaction
To me is sexual because most of the time it is no matter who it is even straight women all right i’ll get help when you get help okay okay okay mutually assured destruction how do i stop this oh it’s on the other side um like this yeah and
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sennosides 25 mg By Sarah Miller