I’m feeling pretty good today. Hopefully the Latuda is helping.
Hey guys uh today is 4 20 to those out there that know what that means um it’s 4 20. um tuesday morning i don’t feel as good as i did yesterday um i ended up i i was more i worked really hard yesterday so i was kind of wore out when i got home even though yesterday was a really great day i was kind of tired so um i ended up taking my restaurant and my latuda
And i laid down and then i ended up waking up you know i slept all through the night that’s that’s another good point i didn’t it’s so early it’s only seven o’clock in the morning i don’t have to be at work until eight so um yeah that’s that’s pretty good if i slept all through the night um so yeah yeah there’s one good thing slept all through the night um i
Woke up at about six um and went ahead and got dressed and um just kind of got ready for the day um i don’t know why i’m at work at seven i kind of i don’t like to sit at home in the mornings i kind of i want to you know i kind of i guess i kind of wanted to be the first person here today just because um usually my boss says and i i do think it makes you look
Good when you get to work early so um i’m here an hour early after i get off of this um you know this video i’ll go in and i’ll open up all the doors and the bays and turn the light on or the lights on and disarm the alarm and all the stuff that he usually does just to make it a little easier on him um i don’t know i i guess i feel pretty good today um is it
The medicine working if if anybody knows how long it takes for latu to start working let me know because i don’t want to get excited about a medicine working and then it just be i’m having one of my good spells or you know whatever um i’m trying to think of maybe something that i can i can report something that my um psychiatrist needs to know um i don’t know
I really don’t have anything this morning so um once again i guess i’m just uh checking in to let you know how i slept and all that good stuff and i’ll do a check-in i i liked how i did it yesterday yesterday i did a check-in in the morning and a check-in i think after i got off work and um i like that because it both it you know in the morning i can let y’all
Know how i slept it’s in such a big or such that since that’s a big thing and then um i can also the the actually number one major thing is how i get by at work um because yesterday i really didn’t i didn’t have any snappy spells or anything like that i felt pretty good all through the day the only thing was that kind of you know that that feeling in my stomach
Like maybe something would go wrong i don’t have that this morning so that’s another good thing so let’s hope that it stays this way um and i have two good days in a row because i really need i really need some good days um my co-worker is having a crawfish bowl this weekend and my uh fiancee probably won’t get to go to it i was gonna get just my oldest son to
Go to it but my boss thinks i should have you know both of my boys go to it so and he’s probably right so um yeah everybody out there i’ll probably be drinking i’m not much of a drinker so um we’ll go out there and you know eat some crawfish and stay for a little bit and then probably just go home because i have a hard time my mom is alcoholic so i have a hard
Time being around people who are really really drunk especially when i don’t get that way so um and then today i’m also going to watch my best friend’s daughter kelsey she um she is the sweetest girl in the world she suffers from down syndrome but i hate to say suffers because you know she’s really just a really really bright girl and um my friend sonya is going
In for a some sort of thing not a job interview but like i guess some kind of training for the job so um she’s gonna drop kelsey off at our house and my son is gonna watch kelsey until i get home which will only be like 15 minutes but he’s 16 anyway so it’s not that big of a deal and he’s been around there forever but um so yeah um so i have that going on today
Um i’m gonna go in here and i’m gonna build a 4l60e and one thing that i don’t know that i’ve really talked about i want to film my builds because i’m a transmission builder and i want to film those builds because for one there’s no other girls doing it and people like to watch me but what happens is is i end up recording and i see something that i don’t like
Because like i told you i pick my face apart like i hate my nose and i hate my crooked smile and my i just there’s so many things that i hate about myself and really i’m not that bad i’m a decent looking person but i just pick myself apart so um today my goal for today is now that i have all the bookkeeping and stuff caught up i want to go in there and build a
Transmission record it post it to my real youtube channel because this is just you know for me to keep up with my moods but i do have a real youtube channel it’s not very big yet but if i if i consistently posted to it then it would be big so yeah there’s that so that’s my goal for today aside from just being as helpful and and staying positive i would really
Like to um you know record that video so um i’ll update you um towards the end of the day or you know whatever and just let you know how far i came with it but um anyway so hopefully this will be day two in a row that’s been a good day i really need it i’m really hoping that my sidecraft or my psychiatrist will watch these videos that way you know she can get
An idea of how you know my moods generally go and i think this will be the best way to go if she’s open to looking at it so i haven’t talked to her about that yet but um yeah so i’m gonna get off here go in unlock everything and just that way my boss doesn’t have to do it when he gets here so um i will talk to you guys later bye
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My bipolar diary: 4/20 Morning update. By Bipolar Chris
