Really hoping for some good news at the doctors tomorrow.
Day 20 i worked from home today and i think that was a mistake um just being caught up in my own head um it’s been really difficult to focus i’ve absolutely wrecked my cuticles like really really ripped them apart fighting off the urge to um to say well of course i didn’t focus and of course i pulled out all my cuticles because i’m a piece of um because
That’s not what we’re doing we’re not we’re not saying that anymore um i ate today even though i felt nauseous even though i didn’t want to well i did want to i wasn’t hungry but i ate anyway which is frustrating and now i’m mad at myself because i feel sick and it’s too hot and work stressing me out and i need to get this done going back to the doctor tomorrow
Morning i i don’t even know what i’m going to say to him i meant to make a list i meant to write things down and i didn’t and i’ll try but i can’t i can’t dedicate time to making a list for the doctors tomorrow because i’m so stressed out about this thing i’ve got to do but instead of doing the thing i’ve got to do i’m gonna find other distractions and
I’m gonna spend a long time um playing games with my favorite person because that’s kinder to my brain than stressing out about the work that i have to do i’m not having a very good day yeah anyway tomorrow hopefully have some sort of update um i hope something is going to change and i hope the doctor’s answer isn’t well give it another three weeks because
Because i can’t do nothing with it i guess at this point without getting the testimonials from colleagues best case scenario is his increases my dosage and then hopefully we’ll get some of the positives and not just the side effects because as i’ve said before right now i’m just getting side effects and not actually getting any benefits so here’s hoping and see you tomorrow
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Day 20 on Atomoxetine By Neurodivergent in Japan
